Full Circle.

When I was young, my family used food stamps. We got government peanut butter and orange juice, complete with white label and simple drawing of a peanut or orange, respectively. We actually got a lot of things from welfare, including the infamous government-funded glasses. Those glasses were the bane of my existence. My sight was atrocious, so they were insanely thick, with bulky brown frames.

Upon receiving those glasses, I was pretty much guaranteed a lack of a social life for the following years. Added to my inability to catch a ball, my Asian skin tone, and my shyness, I was tortured throughout my school days.

Before this becomes a post about the hardships of an outcast childhood, because god knows I have my stories–skipping months of school because I was being picked on so awfully, hiding in the garage because my parents were home and I had nowhere else to go–I just wanted to provide that set-up to bring up a point. That point being, it’s amusing how the things we rued in our awful childhoods are what we embrace later in life.

Being Asian was definitely not a selling point growing up in North Carolina. I was called Jackie Chan, Jet Li, Bruce Lee–any Asian action movie star, really–almost as much as I was called “Fag!” …Hm, that’s lie, but enough times to make me ashamed of being Asian. Today, I wouldn’t want to be anything else than the mutt I am. I really enjoy my skin tone, my small frame, everything that comes with being half-Asian.

Similarly, those big coke-bottle glasses I detested in my childhood, are back! Well, they’re a little more fashionable, but they’ve returned. Yesterday, I went to the optician and picked up these thick frames because I needed an image tweak, something intelligent and classy. After downgrading to thinner frames from those huge ones, and then to contacts, I’m finally back to the size I started with. Funny, no?

Point is: I got glasses, tell me they look good.


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  1. of course they look good. they’re on You, right? you could go even chunkier if you want, but then u’d want a larger frame size to keep some proportion to the thing.

    Comment by Tony — November 28, 2005 @ 5:49 pm


  2. they look very cute.

    you’re half asian, what is the other half? i’m also from a mixed background. that makes us awesome.

    Scott: French/Euro. A little Scottish/Irish. There’s also some Chinese on the Asian side. I’m a big mutt.

    Comment by Kyle — November 28, 2005 @ 6:04 pm


  3. They’re really nice, suit you well. Geekily cute, though you must take that as a compliment.

    Comment by Chris — November 28, 2005 @ 6:37 pm


  4. Scott those glasses look fantastic. I think we had a glasses club in the fifth grade. I loved you back then, but I hated the kids at school too.

    Comment by Charlotte — November 28, 2005 @ 7:21 pm


  5. Growing up anything in NC is difficult. A lot of what you wrote seemed like me when I was younger. My problem was I stuttered really bad and got picked on because of it. I just turned 25 and I still do some. My first bf was Asian .I liked him as a person and not because he was Asian .I also hate him now as a person .His parting gift to me was HIV. But that’s a long story. Your glasses look really cool.

    Comment by Jeremy — November 28, 2005 @ 7:28 pm


  6. The glasses look great. It’s amazing how much you’ve overcome to get where you are today.
    Your life always inspires me–I wish some of our
    students were just as motivated.

    Comment by Martin Smith — November 28, 2005 @ 7:45 pm


  7. notes:
    1. government peanut butter?!? all we ever got was government cheese. and it was really good.
    2. my man got lasik, but i miss his glasses. somewhat of a clark kent fetish, really.
    3. “when i was young” … um, hello.

    Comment by rod townsend — November 28, 2005 @ 10:28 pm


  8. I always thought you were Phillipino. I don’t know why. But anyway, you look hot. The new glasses are great.

    Scott: I am. Filipinos are Asian.

    Comment by annie — November 28, 2005 @ 11:35 pm


  9. I like the new look, raised your IQ at least ten points!

    Comment by Jace — November 29, 2005 @ 12:25 am


  10. You look very intellectual, young man. Take care of yourself in the Big Apple. Jerry

    Comment by Jerry Hanson — November 29, 2005 @ 1:23 am


  11. Fiz-oxie!

    Comment by Carmine — November 29, 2005 @ 9:08 am


  12. I like them. I think they look nice.

    Comment by Steven — November 29, 2005 @ 7:22 pm


  13. You always look so cute. The glasses are also cute on
    you!

    Comment by Ricky Smith — November 30, 2005 @ 6:44 am


  14. Is this a dumb question–does that FENDI lettering
    peel off the glasses or do you have to spend your
    life looking through the letters…and if so is it distracting?

    Comment by Martin Smith — December 2, 2005 @ 4:00 am


  15. your freakin’ adorable…

    Comment by dusty bottoms — December 25, 2005 @ 10:05 pm





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